Kameron Hope is 3! 3 years full of life for this precious girl! When I close my eyes and think about her, I picture her captivating smile and mischievous grin. She lights up the room and has a very commanding presence. She is so extremely beautiful, smart, resilient, and fun. We are so proud of her and all that she has overcome in these 3 short years.
It has been extremely difficult to put into words what missing another year with her feels like. To know we missed out on 2, one of the most fun ages yet, and to know we may miss out completely on year 3 as well.
My grief is compounded by the state of our nation at this time and what my fellow image-bearing black brothers and sisters are going through. I’ve struggled with feeling guilty and questioning whether we should remove Kameron from her home country–where she is not a minority. I’ve felt very inadequate at being equipped to parent her well enough because I will never have the same lived experiences. I also know that with more time passing the trauma of being removed from her current home will be harder for her. But I am not without hope.
She was intentionally given the middle name of Hope because our prayer for her is that her hope will be found in Christ alone, the only one who can give authentic, everlasting hope. The verse we chose for her is Romans 15:13, “May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.” I have hope in this time of turmoil in our nation because Jesus is my treasure and I know He is in control, He is working, and He is good. I have hope that bringing Kameron into our family is what is best for her because I have seen firsthand that no matter how amazing an orphanage is, children belong in families. I have hope that God will equip me with everything I need to be a good mother to Kameron even though I will always lack in some areas (Hebrews 13:21). He already has provided so much through great brothers and sisters in Christ. And lastly, I have hope that God’s timing is best. I am fully confident this is true and I am so thankful that in my pain I can look to Him who cares for me, loves me, and fills my cup time and time again. He truly is my hope and joy and I am praying that someday He is Kameron’s as well.
Happy 3rd birthday Kameron! May you know how loved, known, seen, and cherished you are!
For those wanting an adoption update… there is not much to update other than Coronavirus stopped all court happenings in Congo just like it did here in the US. We don’t know when things will start moving again and what that will look like when it does. Please keep praying barriers are removed and she is able to come home much sooner than we expect.